So, I guess I haven't updated that we have officially taken our home off of the market. We put it up for sale last February, hoping to sell before Stella's arrival, but after six months with no offers and a dwindling market, we decided to wait. As Liam says, "It's hard to be patient!" I was torn (and still am, for that matter) about staying put where we are for right now. I am thankful that we don't have to deal with house showings, open houses, having to keep the house spit-spot all of the time, and having to gather up three kiddos within a moment's notice if a realtor happens to call for a last-minute showing. It was a lot to deal with around the time that Stella was born, so when we took the house off of the market, I was able to breathe a deep sigh of relief.
On the other hand, we really would like to have more space. Even typing that makes me grateful for what space we have. We are more cramped than we'd like to be, but really, we are doing just fine. I think for me it's just a struggle with contentment and gratefulness with what we have. I like to think about what I would like to have compared to what we do have. I like to compare our house to what others have, which only heightens my discontentment. Some days I am thankful that I don't have more space to keep up because--just being honest--it's all I can do to keep some sense of sanity in the space that we have. I know that more house means more work, so in this busy season of having three little ones, I am trying to remind myself that less is best for now.
A few weeks ago, I came across a blog post on this very subject on Passionate Homemaking. The title of the article is "The Blessings of a Small Home." It was just the reminder I needed to hear to be thankful for where we are and some great reasons why. I trust that in His perfect timing, the Lord may bless us with a larger home. But, I think God keeps reminding me that a new house is not where I will find happiness. I don't need a new house; I don't deserve a new house. I am blessed beyond measure with what I have right now. And if it was better for us to be somewhere else, that is where we would be. I trust in my Sovereign, my Good, my All-Knowing and All-Powerful God! I just have to keep reminding my sinful, selfish heart that He knows better than I do!